no one has written and I'm becoming depressed more and more with every phone call. I called Bryan maybe about five times already today. None in which he has picked up the phone. I'm getting worried and depressed. During lunch he seemed really sad. But when ever I saw him in the hall he looked happy. Then we would bumb into each other. Of course on purpose. I wanted to call and apologize for something that I did. Somthing that I don't think that he relizes. I've known Bryan since I was in 3rd grade, his brother since 2nd. But we became very good freinds in seventh. I wish Emily would come online. I'll try to call Bryan at 5:3o something maybe. It'll make me feel better. I don't know why he hasn't answered the phone. The first time I called today he wasn't home which I thought was funny because he's usally home early becasue his stop is like the first. Anyway, he told me to call back, and after that, no one has picked up. I'll try again later. Maybe Bryan's outside or something. Well, where ever he is, I hope he's having a better time then I am now...

The only thing that I can open myself up to is this diary. This and my secert diary in which I have put in alot more thoughts about things. Even a couple of notes to people from video games. Okay, so I openly admit that I'm a little crazy for doing that. Hell, I knew that when I started a diary devoted to Leon from tales of Destiny.

There's nothing else to say. I'm going to go before I get so bored that I kill myself... which I feel like I'm on the verge of doing myself...