i've hit 119 but that no longer feels good. what used to feel good and at least slightly comfortable is now brining me the same anxiety and fear that every other stop has caused before.

I want to go down more but in a way i know how bad it is... i don't know anymore. i just want to stop feeling like this.

i want to feel my bones. see them and admire them.

brittany says i look too skinny now, well, she must be blind.