110 today.
and everything still looks out of place and not right. They ask when I will be happy. As if I don't ask myself that every day.

I don't know. It's hard to say. Maybe never. But it's damn worth the try. It's better than being anything more. Every new number is scary but exciting.

Billy Idol is my new idol. I think I have like, almost all of his songs on my computer now fiinally. My new goal in life is to meet him. MEET him. See him & meet him. Ugh. I'd do anything to just have a conversation with this man.

Anything-anything. Ooh pleease? I'm so serious.

I don't want to die. I'm not in this to die. I want to live. But I don't know how to sometimes. It's strange.

1.5 months until I move. It's so exciting that I can't stand it. August 21st for me. I can't believe it. It's going to happen. And I just might be alright after all.