i said i was gone but... when i look back on my life... i can't help but realize this is a part of it. who i was, what i used to be.

life was easier than, or so it feels sometime. I've definitely changed. but things felt so different. I worked out one of the hardest years of my life here.

And I never really shared the heartache and the pain I was in. I masked it well with fandoms and fantasies. Games and real-world escapes.

And I think that healed me.

Maybe I'll come back again... and heal again. I need to reflect.

Like the new look? Me too <3 it'll help me come back when i need to. I redid the cast page too... even though I'll only see this probably <3 Maybe I should start a new diary all together... who knows. things are looking different.